2015

last blog post before 2015 ends.......... 2015 was honestly my best year yet (yeah, i hated my childhood), there hasn't been a year where i smiled and laughed genuinely as much as i did this year and i really did grew up a lot emotionally this year so i am really thankful for everything and everyone this year be it negative or positive xx :-)

^ so I barely did anything the past week (officially a week since I've been back), I just slept and rest, catch up on tv, did a bit of work and got addicted to a new drama heheh. I think I went out only twice(?) this week, once to meet caroline for dinner and Christmas wonderland (full of people everywhere zzzzzzzzz)

^ I took this in Switzerland but didn't upload it in the previous post haha

 

^ face yes face

when i got out of secondary school and stepped into poly, i never expected my 2015 to turn out this way.. all i wanted was to get into a course i like (& i did? i wanted AMS but i never knew that i can make it so i didn't really think of it but um yes after doing CPPS,PRNASC,maths i wonder why i wanted it from the first place.....oops hahahha) and i just wanted to make myself happy and fit in with people instead of distancing myself away but 2015 gave me much more than what i wanted...
I got a o level score i never knew i was capable in achieving, i manage to successfully lose weight and maintain it (i'm currently close to my ideal weight but it's a quite unhealthy weight so i'll eat more hahaha), i get stressed out by what i need to learn in class but i still like aviation so no regrets with choosing AMS, i got into a great class and met people and friends that makes me happy and actually want to go to school, i got to experience a wide range of emotions i never experienced before, i learned a lot and grew up from stuff that happened, i manage to open myself up a lot a lot more and become noisier haha (i'm actually glad when i hear from people this year that "i look skinner", "i look happier", "i am way more sociable now", "i smile a lot more", "i look different", "i talk a lot more" hahaha so thank you to whoever that said those to me this year xx), i barely have conflicts with my family members anymore, i think much more positive nowadays idk why too haha, i did crazy stuff i never knew i would have the chance/capable of doing and i got the chance to escape from reality and go to Europe at a time when i really needed a getaway to throw myself out of reality and to see such beautiful places, it's really a blessing... so, I am really thankful for this year :")

obviously, I went through shitty times and did things I kind of wish I can go back and stop myself from doing but.....

(perspective)......

 

If I didn't experience/go through bad times, I won't grow up and I won't learn and the stupid thing is, if I was given a chance to restart 2015, I would have probably lived it the same way because at that very point, I did what I wanted to do.

& so for my 2015 addiction......

HEALER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was very crazy about healer (& ji chang wook) for the first 2-3 months of 2015 but I got over it soon haha. Ji chang wook came sg for a free fan meet but........... I didn't go :") I actually could attend because my mum was overseas but I decided not to zzzzzzzzz (bad decisions I've made in life :( )

^ currently addicted to............ I hate watching dramas when it's still airing because when i'm addicted and it doesn't come out new episodes, i'll cry.. like really cry hahahahahha. & stupid myap who makes bad decisions, decided to watch this when it is only gonna end mid January so now she has to have self control and watch one ep every few days :")

& OPPAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA(s) <3

& to whoever that is reading my long and laggy 2015 reflection blog post haha, ALL THE BEST FOR 2016 xxxxxx stay healthy and happy and study hard, don't let bad times kill you too much  :-))